WTF = What The Facebook!

So, facebook where has it wronged me? Well we didn’t start out on the best of terms, people defected to Facebook and before I knew it I was talking to myself..We started out alright Facebook and me it quickly became the site which seemed to be filled with people I went to school with. So I spent many a night poring through other people’s profiles seeing what they had gotten up to.These days I have every application blocked, from bejewelled, to farmville, pet shop to mafia wars even horoscopes. If it clutters up my feed with someone else telling me they lost a fucking goat and would I like it, I press block. So my feed has been streamlined but what of everything else?Well in truth I have discovered that I don’t really talk to that many people bar a handful. There are a lot of people who are friends on the site that I didn’t even know. And as it seems to be a requirement that you add everyone from school your hands are tied. What makes it worse is that now with the ‘mutual friends’ feature everyone can see when you aren’t friends with that person anymore. Talk about forcing your hand.Heres the thing. It is all bollocks. I don’t believe half of them. I do not believe that their lives are as perfect as they want to argue. I don’t believe that anyone who spends their whole lives trying to convince me how awesome their lot is can really be that happy. and plus there's some people who argue and blame each other on the their wall,spaming,swearing and act to be cool,man,you guys ruin the wall.it's swearing is really necessary?Anyone else think they doth protest too much?Now I have dillied and dallied about deleting people or just getting rid of the whole thing.

fakebook!

fresh meat!

Here we go,For one moment in my life, its good to feel really fresh when you woke up every morning knowing that you had enough sleep, life is good, everything seems to went well, well im not talking about my project or assignment at least.

Its been the second day which i thought, "hey, why not do something different today? something which you could enjoy doing it all by yourself, not with family nor friends." In fact, theres one time you will feel like you are all alone, eventhough you know next to you theres a person. It just a feelings where suddenly all your thoughts were playing around, imagining what if life would be different few years back, what if i didnt do all the things i have done, would my life would be better or worst?.

Then i feels like, "hey, why do i always doing and being the the same way? what have my life become?", on a second thought, i do feels like my life is kinda hook on something, its like i need to do this 'thing' eventhough theres nothing i get by doing it, or even nothing wrong if i didnt do it. Why was that? was that what they call as feeling guilty to myself? Its not like im not being myself, or im trying to be others, its only me trying to be better, which i must say its hard and at the same time rewarding!. I should have known that for some reasons, being in a comfort zone is not always work out, i should have done something more risky in return of something far more greater.

-_-

thanks facebook

To the credits of social network, I managed to find many long lost friends whom I met before I even hit puberty. It's not surprised to see them married with kids and with a happy family. Looking at their pictures that I realized how much people aged after childbirth. So much for a happy family.

It's not a race that I want to participate. Still, I hope to reach my end of stop some days.

keep the good people around

I think I've reached a point in my life where I only want to keep the good people around.I know I'm not the only one who has put up with a lot of bullshit in the past from people that considered themselves friends. After a while, it starts to wear on you. You begin wondering why you keep letting these people stick around

On another note, I believe in forgiveness - wholeheartedly. I believe that everyone screws up every now & then, and nobody is perfect. However, when someone keeps screwing up in the same ways and begins to expect your forgiveness, the scales become tipped. It gets all thrown out of whack, and you end up being the schmuck that somebody is walking all over. That ain't friendship, folk

WORST PART!

I've always wondered how does that happen? How can you not notice that you and your other half or, in my case "friends", just started to develop different interests, life styles and mentalities?!Recently I found out how it happens. It starts when you finish high school. The whole "gang", in which you were an essential member, just separated. Some went to different college or universities in different parts of the country and the less fortunate part just reached their education limit and got married.

You get into a university where you know no one. Just like everyone you get all kinds of assignments and you have to do them with a bunch of your classmates. If you're lucky, you'll get stuck with people you actually like and get along with and them you just become friends. The more time you spend together, the more you realize how much you have in common and how close you become until you're even more than BROTHERS. At this point you think that you'd think that you'd stay friends no matter what happens and no matter how far life takes you.

Then it starts to happen. Whenever you get together, you come back with a sense of disappointment. Everything you used to have in common is just slipping away. You are starting to develop interests that seem so irrelevant to them.The worst part is,you don't tell any of that to your friends because they'll just think you're crazy or wasting your time. And when you tell some of them about it, at the end they just give that little nod and an "ummm" and then they start talking about "Men are from Mars and Women are from Venus".

thanks beast!

Back to my room , but now it’s almost 2:00 am and I’m closing my book and going to bed all ready for the class tomorrow..and I’m still up and all I can hear is TIK .. TOK.. TIK.. TOK the fuckin desk clock on the table. I try to keep it off my mind and it’s starting to work . Finally I’ll get some sleep. But I can hear a dog barking in the street so I start thinking about how dogs live out there in streets .Poor things.. The dog keeps barking and now I’m thinking “ok.. It’s not a big deal, it’ll stop now” but it keeps going on and on and on and my anger is building up.. Now I’m pressing the pillow tight on my head but still I can hear it barking.. now it’s 3:00 am and I get off my bed in one move and open the window and stick almost all the upper half of my body out and shout my head off “SHUT UUUUUUUP YOU FUCKIN DOOOG!!!!” and it actually shuts up :) thanks dog (beast).

ANOTHER YEAR.

I still can't believe another year has passed. I still remember celebrating the new year going into 2010. I can't say that it's been a good year and that I stayed true to all of my resolutions but, it has been a very interesting year and I think that does kinda make it a good year. I feel like I've gained so much just by introspection. Looking into myself. While I'm sure that I haven't completely figured myself out yet, I understand life a little better and understand now that there aren't necessarily any rules and that there are no absolutes. It's gonna go by quickly.