WORST PART!

I've always wondered how does that happen? How can you not notice that you and your other half or, in my case "friends", just started to develop different interests, life styles and mentalities?!Recently I found out how it happens. It starts when you finish high school. The whole "gang", in which you were an essential member, just separated. Some went to different college or universities in different parts of the country and the less fortunate part just reached their education limit and got married.

You get into a university where you know no one. Just like everyone you get all kinds of assignments and you have to do them with a bunch of your classmates. If you're lucky, you'll get stuck with people you actually like and get along with and them you just become friends. The more time you spend together, the more you realize how much you have in common and how close you become until you're even more than BROTHERS. At this point you think that you'd think that you'd stay friends no matter what happens and no matter how far life takes you.

Then it starts to happen. Whenever you get together, you come back with a sense of disappointment. Everything you used to have in common is just slipping away. You are starting to develop interests that seem so irrelevant to them.The worst part is,you don't tell any of that to your friends because they'll just think you're crazy or wasting your time. And when you tell some of them about it, at the end they just give that little nod and an "ummm" and then they start talking about "Men are from Mars and Women are from Venus".

thanks beast!

Back to my room , but now it’s almost 2:00 am and I’m closing my book and going to bed all ready for the class tomorrow..and I’m still up and all I can hear is TIK .. TOK.. TIK.. TOK the fuckin desk clock on the table. I try to keep it off my mind and it’s starting to work . Finally I’ll get some sleep. But I can hear a dog barking in the street so I start thinking about how dogs live out there in streets .Poor things.. The dog keeps barking and now I’m thinking “ok.. It’s not a big deal, it’ll stop now” but it keeps going on and on and on and my anger is building up.. Now I’m pressing the pillow tight on my head but still I can hear it barking.. now it’s 3:00 am and I get off my bed in one move and open the window and stick almost all the upper half of my body out and shout my head off “SHUT UUUUUUUP YOU FUCKIN DOOOG!!!!” and it actually shuts up :) thanks dog (beast).

ANOTHER YEAR.

I still can't believe another year has passed. I still remember celebrating the new year going into 2010. I can't say that it's been a good year and that I stayed true to all of my resolutions but, it has been a very interesting year and I think that does kinda make it a good year. I feel like I've gained so much just by introspection. Looking into myself. While I'm sure that I haven't completely figured myself out yet, I understand life a little better and understand now that there aren't necessarily any rules and that there are no absolutes. It's gonna go by quickly.

''IM JUST DOING MY JOB'' man,stop it!

I can't stand when someone uses this excuse or uses it to explain someone else's action. I was bitching about cops the other day and someone said to me, "They're just doing their jobs". What the fuck kind of reason is that? The Nazi soldiers were "just doing their jobs" when they murdered millions of people. Our troops are "just doing their jobs" when they kill people overseas for no reason. In the capitalist society we live in pretty much everyone is "just doing their job". The robber that stole your shit at gunpoint is just doing his job. The bank denying you credit is just doing it's job. The lazy fat fuck at the DMV that's ignoring you even though you've been waiting in line for two hours is just doing her job. The terrorists could be said to be just doing their jobs. Doing your job is no fucking reason to do anything...unless you're a fucking coward and a pawn.

Appreciate and piss off!

APPRECIATE = THANK YOU!

I have come to realize that some people do not have the ability to appreciate. They just cant do it. I believe it has to be some type of missing gene. Maybe the gene has taken it over. I have seen people after you have gone out of your way to help them just turn against you. Its like nothing you did ever mattered to them. What I do find is this type of person is typically a loser. They have not done anything with themselves except fuck up their life.Useless and suck up everything around you.Bad decisions make good stories.you're bad and i made the story.Do learn how to appreciate other and you'll be human.

GREY MATTERS

Many people define ignorance differently if they are speaking about themselves or someone else. You may view your own ignorance as innocent yet someone else is guilty of their own ignorance. Notice a difference. How do you judge? Some people are harder on self than they are on others. What are some possible reasons for your choices? Consider why people focus on things they believe they cannot do. In some cases, they even fight about it. You may view this as selective ignorance of potential or, you may simply notice discordant energy. Different levels of awareness affect perception of what you choose to see and feel right now. Ask yourself how you avoid being present in the moment and what you are becoming in future. To be present is to have a mind which is empty of thought, fear, judgment, everything. Some people are convinced they are complacent if they do not find reason to feel anxious. What brings you inner peace?

in my opinion,some ignorance might be blessing.thanks for ignoring!

HANDCLAPS,CLAPS CLAPS.

It’s Christmas fever. I’m in a dark room. My stolen internet connection is worthless. My family is going through some stuff. I love you all but I’m just not able to give this post all the detailing that it deserves. I hope that you are too busy with your own holiday festivities to care and can just kick back and enjoy this collection of jams for the interesting mix that they are. Dive in and enjoy. I know I’ve been.